Each day is like an experiment in chaos theory. Will the butterfly wing flap in South America cause a tornado in Texas, and if flapped twice, will there be high clear skies in North Carolina? I like to think the initial conditions are the same — I rise first, go about my waking business, prepare, make, and deliver a cup of coffee — one sugar (I do sometimes forget), Knowing the initial conditions, however, have lost any predictive capacity<\/p>\n\n\n\n
All seems the same as the previous day but in 45 minutes — there is silence. Persistent silence, as though we were conducting a ritual at a religious retreat. We are running errands. We make it to the car without a “Do you have…?”. I have noticed that Elise has her gloves, cane, and cellphone purse. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
“I don’t have any money.” Statement of fact.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We drive in silence. I feel like I am wearing a hat with a too tight head band. There’s whooshing sound in my ears.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“Do you really want to park here?”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“You didn’t want to come in. You have no money.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“I might find something”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We move. I give her $20. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
The ride back is silent too. So is lunch. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
By dinner, learning from the news of another mass shooting, it is time to lament. We are in agreement on a solution but at loss as to how to implement it. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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